Friday, 9 December 2016

Recently I had another dream about being kissed. it was spontaneous passionate and intense.

Monday, 28 November 2016

Like a memory from a dream

Well work has been good. I don't feel like a moron all of the time now.

I watched one of the films on my 'to watch list' yesterday; The French connection. I enjoyed it. Car chases, gun fights, hot headed cops. It was gritty, the protagonist Doyle is like a brutal maverick with a gung-ho attitude. It was very atmospheric but I have to say it did not captivate me the way Casablanca did. I did like Doyle's line "picking your feet in Poughkeepsie". It was like his tagline.


I once expressed a theory that finding a true connection with people would be easier if we were brains in jars. we could only differentiate by our intellectual ability and inclination, our human emotion and thoughts.

Recently there have been a couple of times that a memory that I thought that I had forgotten has come back to me because of something trivial.

It's so weird how our brains can retain information in some kind if organised system. I like to think of my brain as a room full of filing cabinets.

Scientists have been doing research into memories and have developed a concept that memories can be mapped on the brain and retrieved. It's called optogenetics. it cannot currently be used on humans but studies have been done using mice. its very interesting to read about.
Reminds me of Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind.

Song for today is homeward bound by Simon and Garfunkel. I love this.
"Home, where my love lies waiting silently for me"
I'm fascinated by his relationship with Kathy.

Wednesday, 21 September 2016

Game, changes and fears

There has been nothing but change in my life recently. Normally I handle change like an angry hippo but I'm dealing well....I want to say it's because I'm grown-up and mature but I think the real reason is that a certain book has taught me that "I'll handle it".

That does not mean that everything will go right. And it does not mean that you aren't going to feel totally stupid.

I frequently feel totally stupid... But it does mean that I will face it all head on, smiling and unapologetically being myself.

Do not run away from your life - you can handle it!


Song of today is a foxy lady, Macy Gray - I try. 

Friday, 2 September 2016

Crush crush crush

I love Robert Carlyle. I have done since I was a kid and still when I see him on tv my heart beats faster.
I guess that's how it feels to have a crush though. It's the same as the beginning of a relationship,  everytime you see that person you just feel like you're melting from the inside out.

This is the thing aswell, how do you know if a crush is actually love. I'm not for one minute saying that I am genuinely in love with Robert Carlyle. But I mean I honestly thought that I was in love with the boy I had my first kiss with.

I cant really blame myself though, it was just like a movie. Everything was slow motion, it could have been 10 seconds or 10 minutes. I remember everything around us was hazy and out of focus. In reality the kiss was terrible but it was and still is in my top 5 romantic moments.

          Look how damn hot he's is!  Miaow!

Thursday, 14 July 2016

July she will fly

Sometimes you learn things that really surprise you, things you read about and a little sparkle of excitement jumps inside you.
Today I learned that in Paris back in the 1850s there was such a thing as treetop restaurants and bars. The original 'grand Robinson' was a restaurant built in an old chestnut tree. People who could not get to the seaside would come for a getaway. It was all the rage! The pictures are just amazing.

There are far more amazing details on the website - messynessychic

There is also some really interesting information about the moulin rouge and it's famous (or infamous) elephant.

And now for a song, one I keep coming back to. It sounds like summer rain, you know the kind that is warm and heavy and all at once.
  April come she will-simon and garfunkel.

"I want to know you moved and breathed in the same world with me" - F Scott Fitzgerald